Red Bird Ministries Seeks To Reframe Cultural Perspective on Life and Grief During Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Non-Profit Organization Offers Uniquely Catholic Resources for Families of Child Loss

We are asked to hold SO MUCH after the death of our child, but one of the heaviest loads was feeling like I failed. We are hard-wired as parents, after our child is born, to make sure our child survives. It is our job. And when that doesn't happen, for whatever reason, we feel like we have failed. It doesn't matter if we recognize this feeling as irrational — we still feel that way. It is one of the most brutal parts of losing a child.

I imagine every parent has felt the anxiety of losing a child in a crowd, at a store, at the park, or elsewhere. I have had a few memories of such stressful moments.

Have you ever been so frustrated and mad with God, that praying seems impossible?

Like many of us, something I've struggled with for as long as I can remember is anxiety. Deep rooted anxiety that can sometimes cause physical symptoms of nausea, hot and cold sweating, dizziness and the feeling like I could pass out. As I got older, that anxiety manifested into feelings of self doubt, self worth, becoming very self conscious and that I was never good enough. I would struggle trying to figure out what to wear on a daily basis, what people would think of me and had problems making decisions for myself. Don’t misunderstand me- these are things I still struggle with, but have learned to identify what is happening now.